Waging a war against myself. We're both losing. - 2004-02-08 - 7:20 p.m.

My eyes are open now. I don't know if it's worth it anymore. Everyday I wonder if something's going to happen that will result in me being happy for a decent amount of time. It doesn't.

BME and IAM are not as great as I previously thought. My piercer slept over last night and we had this big talk about BME. It's corrupted like fuck. The original purpose doesn't matter anymore, probably because there never was a valid one to begin with. There are cliques, there are groups, people are missing the point. Vegan, carnivore, straight-edge, gay, bi, popular, show-off, it's all the same shit. Popular people don't dare talk or get to know the people "below" them in this community.

Dare I say "community."

I'm not sure what's going on with my love life right now. Things are shitty in general, and I'm considering flying solo.

I've even considered moving back to Quebec. Things are THAT fucked up right now.

I must thank you world, for ruining it all. Without you I would be happy.

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